I’ve always said I’m just a little kid on the inside, and sometimes it shows. I was always the goofy kid who would rather smile than frown, live free and not worry about the down sides of life. On a recent weekend, I went back to college as a handful of alumni made the trip for an Alumni Golf Tournament. The little kid on the inside tried his heart out to be young again, but I faced the fact that recently the young adult outside has been winning the battle.
After the first night of hanging out with college friends and staying up late, my outside body reflected my true age. I awoke the next morning sore because I’d slept on my friend’s recliner. We set a tee time of 8 a.m. My little kid on the inside was psyched to play golf, yet my outside adult hated the lack of sleep, the soreness from sleeping in the chair and the feeling my golf clubs might come in handy as a substitute cane. I shrugged it off thinking “I can’t show these guys I’m getting older. After all, I’m supposed to be the energetic goofball everyone remembers.”
After golfing for five hours, I was sun burnt, tired and dragging on the outside. After golf, we alumni returned to the house and slept for two hours. We then did what we wanted to do…absolutely nothing. We hung out and watched football until the younger guys discovered us. That night, we stayed out even later than the night before, rationalizing that this was our last night to “hang out with the guys.”
The next morning my back felt like I’d slept on a gravel road and even my little kid inside was beginning to slow down. I gathered my belongings for the long drive back to Troy. I had a blast hanging out with old friends and I can honestly say I’ll do it again…most likely in a year. Thinking back on my college days, I cannot believe how energetic I was. Hard to imagine just a few short years later I return for one weekend and debate on renting a hotel room so I can have a decent place to sleep and rest. It was a great trip, and I had fun, but if I had to stay one more night, I think my outside adult would shut down.
I know I’m getting older and still holding on to some of my childish ways, but I believe each and every one of us should keep some child-like aspects. When I was in college, I went on road trips, met random people, and found ways to have fun. Some things will change once we hit a certain age (I’m still in the denial stage), yet we should always remember to enjoy life. Don’t be worried about what others will say or think of our actions. It could be they’ve already stifled that little kid on the inside. Always keep your inner child and remember, sometimes it’s OK to let him/her out.
By James Brandly